#I've traveled to many places throughout the world and even so my favorite place to come home to is my own heart.
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It goes everywhere I go.
When I am lost, so is my heart.
When I am joyous, so is my heart.
When desire for living burns beyond the threshold of fullness, my heart burns with me.

The shortest and longest journey will always be back to myself... particularly when the mundane daily living has taken over. I've lost my way so many times the road back to me is paved with failures and permanent scars. I now see them as pebbles I stumble over, speed bumps I slow down to cross and wild animals that dart in front of my path bringing my being to a screeching halt!

None of that is of any consequence because I will forever see my own heart as the place I yearn for most. It's where my ache for self happily lives. My heart is my home.

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I'm always afraid. It's the thing you're not supposed to say!

​The difference is that I don't let fear scare me out of doing things I want to. After a nice cry, I typically smooch fear on the nose and keep going. When I think of all the adventures I would have missed by letting fear lead me...
"I have sky dived, hiked up a glacier and raised 5 sons to manhood all with fear standing watch over my shoulders" 

Most of the time I am free falling much like Icarus flying to close to the sun but what is the alternative? Not live a robust life? I'm not willing to just survive through this. I've had those seasons but it cannot be the majority as I move through this full of breath, vigor and belief in the possibilities.

Respectfully life should be lived as if it's the last one you'll have. It might be!
Every piece of your life wants it's due. Wake up in gratitude then flow along the waves of it throughout the day. I have bad days. Sometimes REALLY bad BUT I push through. When giving birth, mothers reach a threshold called "the ring of fire". It's the moment juuuussst before the baby emerges. It's painful. It burns. It's also the last moment that baby has in the comfort and safety of your womb before it emerges into the world. The baby has to come through. 

This is living life! There are painful moments and decisions juuuussst before you fully emerge yourself. I'm there right now. On the verge. On the precipice. Pushing through as I emerge leaving the safety of where I've been. Me and Icarus have a deep connection. I am willing to fly as close to the sun as possible to live fully!

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