Anytime I bring up any subject, I can find its connection to art. Not because I have to but because I CHOOSE to! I wish the world at large, would give more acknowledgement to why we know the history we do... it's because of what the creatives left behind as artifacts.

Architecture, paintings, sculptures, decorative household items, writings, music and all manners of imagery for us to discern who came before the now. If not for those minds, we would only be subject to know what we see before us currently instead of delving into why we've become the societies we've become.

There is lasting. There is keeping. There is documenting. There is archiving. It matters deeply. With all of the digital remnants of who we are currently, will the future have the capabilities to find artifacts of us. In this deeply digital age, are the analog creatives producing enough pieces to be discovered by those who come after. Will there be enough left to say, "we were here"?

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Wherever I am I find myself staring into the sky at the clouds. While others around me strain their necks to see what is happening around them or yelling into the abyss known as traffic or busying themselves with their daily mundane, I, Kottaveiinflux am staring towards the sky at the clouds. Cotton candy looking enticement caressing my eyeballs.

I have forever believed that all I desired lived there on atlas, in those clouds. They are this magical fluff holding the secrets to my heart's desires and, well, rain... but I digress. There is nothing more enticing visually than a big, fluffy, happy cloud. Or a striated, angry, dark clouds about to spill its contents. Those distant friends hold the secret, and I always stare hoping I won't miss the moment. 

Clouds are my personal dream catchers! Even when I fly on a plane, knowing that clouds are a composition of water droplets smushed together, I still whisper my deepest hopes, softly but aloud to them. It makes me feel as if nature has conspired to hold me up in spaces that are truly unable to be held in the hand. Even knowing this, I grab at the clouds and my dreams anyway!

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I am an introverted and camara shy woman. People meet me and see the fire in my personality and mistake it for extroverted-ness. I can do it. The crowds. The people even when it's over peoply (yes Imade that word up!) ... but then I go back into my shell. I go back into my imagination and rest there. My imagination is home.

My godfather was a wonderful photographer, and I dabbled a little but only with black and white images. I loved the pure, rawness of no color to distract from what was in front of me. With color gone I can see the nooks and crannies of where life is happening on the fringes of me standing in that moment at that time to capture that exact moment.

I essentially hold the camera up to capture the mirror my own soul. The reflection of how the world gives me time to see it fully, unencumbered and freely. So many moments are missed by simply not looking up. I lament for the mirrors of life and moments we never see because we are so plugged into technology.
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I aspire to be more mindful. To be more aware. To simple BE then capture it for posterity. 

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For 8 years after my Mama became an ancestor, I shaved my head. I mean down to the scalp at 2 am in the morning on most occasions. That always felt like the sacred time to do it.

It wasn't because my hair wouldn't grow (even though stress gave me moments of stress induced alopecia), it was because hair seemed to matter the least and take time away from what made me feel like I was living.

I wanted more time to spend with family, create new artworks I'd dreamed of time to write, time to read, time to just BE with nature. Hair absolutely did not feel of any significance or importance when my mama left this earthly plain. 

She and I had had our disagreements and viewpoints of the world, but she birthed me from her womb and heart. Who was I to not acknowledge her sacrifices for allowing me to come into being? I'm now growing an Angela Davis fro' in between artistically cultured braids...but who knows when life will require a quiet release and an outward sacrifice for my own becoming. Again, I will be willing. 
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"Have you ever fought a bear, wrestled an alligator or been wrapped too tightly by a boa constrictor? Yeah...me neither but life hands you circumstance that makes me feel like choosing the bear, alligator or boa constrictor! 

Transformation happens in the oddest and not obvious spaces or times. Sometimes I resist even when it is futile and I'm left in this cycle of repeating because I didn't get the lesson the first time. I'm not going to lie...it sucks!

I want forward. I want ease. I want journeying and life goes "Watch this!".  That statement never is as fun as when a child says, "watch this!" and then performs some skip, hop and turn that is funnier to them than it is to the observers. 

I stand 10 toes down with belief in my gifts, talents and abilities and in those moments where the lesson is revisited, it can reduce me to my lesser self of disbelief. It leaves me asking if everything that I'm made of is real or just a mirage and that space is more terrifying than the bear, alligator and boa constrictor all combined together. ​

I hate to admit it but, on those days, filled with self- doubt...if approached by a bear and a repeated lesson....I choose the bear!

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You can never name me without my permission. 

There is a quote I love by activist Audre Lorde..."If I didn't define myself for myself, I would be crunched into other people's fantasies for me and eaten alive".

I will never allow myself to be eaten alive by others viewpoints and thoughts of me. I am absolutely unapologetically Kottavei. 

I am an artist, author, artivist, maker, food nerd, conduit, intellectual badass, ambassador of joy, visual griot, nerd, hula hooper, entrepreneur and SO much more. Oftentimes, people who meet me and get a glimmer of all the thing I do to bring light into this chaotic world, they ask me "What do you NOT do?. My response is always the same: "I'll let you know when I find out". 

Am I great at all of that? Of course not! But to I trust myself to be fearless and try everything my heart desires? Yes! Why yes I do.​ I am a wildflower among roses that still fully blooms.

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The fact that I was standing at The Golden Triangle doesn't matter so much. It is a place in the world where 3 countries intersect and touch. Thailand, Laos and Myanmar meet, greet and stand together at this sweet spot.

Somehow, reflecting on this photo gives me a snapshot of my own life standing at the intersection of who I was, who I am and who I'm becoming! I am in my own triangle, probably less golden and more vibrant yellow. 

I have lived in my head, daydreaming, imagining, visualizing, speaking it into existence and of course, writing it down in great detail. That is the past. Currently, I am releasing, believing, activating and moving forward on indulgent choices towards creating the life I desire for myself. That life is on the horizon and I am traveling towards it at warp speed!

Six months to a year from now I hope not to recognize this current life I'm in because what comes next is SO filled with love, ease, comfort, creativity, travel, friendship, blessings and BEING! Much like the body becomes new every 7-10 years...I am being made new in this nex 7- 10 months! I invoke the resilience of my ancestors and call it into being. Ase!
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In 2024 while waiting for my person in life, I decided to romanticize my life. I did all the things I'd want someone who loved me to do for me....and in doing so, I realized I am of the love of my own life!

I keep flowers in my bedroom; I take myself to dinner sometimes in other countries because I gift me travel. I read romantic books while sipping coffee on my front porch watching the sun rise (or set) and listen to the birds sing. I wear decadent exotic perfumes and cook amazing international meals served beautifully for me.

​I blow kisses into the wind so they can land gently on my cheek. I blow bubbles and dance freely as if no one is watching and if they are, so what. I still dance! I luxuriate in the essence of me simply being.

Who am I to give love others so deeply and meaningful, if I don't dare to give that same level of love to myself?  By giving what I desire, I have received love deeper that I've ever known and I'm grateful for this loving self as I embark on this spiritual journey home to my next self. Whoever I m becoming I love her deeply already and look forward to knowing her better.

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Nomad. That single word whispers to my heart what I have already known...I belong to everywhere. I am a citizen of the world. There is nowhere that I can't call home.

I remember flipping through national Geographic magazines and watching PBS specials, telling myself that one day I will be there among the Thai monks meditating, Ndebele women with their beadwork and the molas sitting in the laps of San Blas women as they stitch.

What a wonderous joy to know that I've done some of this with more coming. I sit at the hem of all the cultures eagerly wanting to know more. Ravenous for the tender connection of newness.

As I move through this world, I see myself in the smile of Morocco, the laughter of Portugal and the kindness of Peru. These gifts belong to me and light rain hitting a soft patch of earth, it splashes joy into the desert spaces of my spirit, soaking me with understanding...everywhere I go, I see a fresh part of who I'm becoming. 

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